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While I'm learning to be content and letting patience have its perfect work in my life, it seems like a majority of my single friends and acquaintances are getting engaged and/or married. For the last few weeks, it's like I was getting marital news every other day. No. Lie. It's raining rings all around me.
In prior years, this would seriously have made me question my existence. I would spend days wondering if I was on the right track, if God really heard my prayers, and be spending some serious time before God's throne trying to get a sense of when my turn was ever going to pop up.
However, I can honestly say that I am content. My time with the Lord has shown me things about myself, about Him, and about my purpose right now that lets me know that everything is exactly where it's supposed to be right now. I have no reason to complain. My day is coming.
It took a while to get to this spot. But this spot is much better than the envious/worried/anxious place I used to reside in. Right here, I can celebrate the changes in the lives of others while cherishing my own corner of the world.
Can you celebrate with someone who gets exactly what you've been believing God for? If your friends popped up with a new fiance/job/car/house/insertyourprayerrequesthere could you honestly praise God with them? Or would a piece of your heart be breaking because they got it, and you're still waiting?
Depending on your answer, you might need to spend some more time talking to the Captain of your ship. Because no matter how your life pans out, you should be content, trusting that God has you right where you are supposed to be.
Verse of the Day: But godliness with contentment is great gain. For we brought nothing into this world, and it is certain we can carry nothing out. I Timothy 6:6, 7
Good morning Miss Ti,
ReplyDeleteOh my Goodness!! The Holy Ghost convicted me big time when I read your post!! This is something that I've struggled with for the LONGEST time...the "when is it going to be my turn??".."When am I going to meet my soul mate??"
I felt convicted because when amazing blessings have happened for my family/friends, I have felt so happy for them, honestly, and then immediately slip into a sadness because I was waiting on the same thing and it hadn't come to pass for me.
Specially when it comes to love. I was married for 15 years and it ended in divorce in 2005. From that union, God blessed me with 2 beautiful daughters (22 and 19 now) and I thank God so much for my children. Fast forward to the present, the Holy Ghost led me back to my Father's house and gave myself to the Lord, was baptized and love my home church.
Feeling very content and happy in so many areas except for the "love part". Honestly, my heart desire is to also be married with a man of God but I feel as if I'm on hold because I'm not ready for it and God knows it???? All in his perfect timing, I know. Is it wrong to be so content and grateful for so many things in my life yet still have that angst of "why can't God please, please, please finally send me His appointed soul mate for me???"
Sorry for venting Miss Ti, it was just on my spirit because your post hit so close to home for me. It's something that I struggle with so, so much. God bless you and keep you!!!!
Thanks for sharing your story, Dee. One thing I know: God knows your heart's desire, and He also knows what's best for you. In His great love that He has for you, He will bring you your heart's desire when He knows that you and your husband are ready for each other.
ReplyDeleteJust keep the faith and trust in His loving goodness. As you prepare and pray for your mate, keep your spirit open for God's voice. He won't withhold any good thing from you! (Psalm 84:11)
Wonderful post! Ive actually been meditating over this scritpure for the past few weeks. I found myself getting angry becuase everyone around was getting the blessing that I was praying for. I didnt like that I was angry so I instantly asked God to help me navigate my feelings...
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing, Kristen. Glad that you're turning to God to get things right!
ReplyDeleteThank you for your reply Miss Ti.
ReplyDeleteEverything clicked for me when I read your line about how God will bring me my hearts desire regarding my future mate, when both my husband and I are ready for each. Never thought about it that way. I never looked at it as God hasn't allowed it to happen because we're both not ready for each other....not yet.
I'll be waiting and trusting in God to send my future mate when He sees that we're both truly ready for each other....all in His perfect timing. How awesome and amazing my God is!! Thank you again and God bless you!!!!